Now What?
I am at a point where I have six and a half months between seasons in life. I have no idea what to do with them. I am working at a pointless job in Cripple Creek and playing a bunch of poker. I'm preparing for a wedding November 12th. Buuuuuttt... now what? Do I just sit idly by and work my tail off and goof off around here? Do I go somewhere and work a camp, or guide, or travel? Do I move to Minnesota early? I'm not really sure. I'm in the saddle between peaks now - the only destination I have is clearly the summit (marriage) in 6.5 months, but what route do I take to get there?Part of me wants to go be in Minnesota with Shay. But then I will really really really want to be married sooner. Another part of me wants to go live in a tent on a river in the middle of nowhere and guide all summer. Another part of me would love to spend one last summer at Forest Home. Another part of me wants to just work my tail off to have some finances going into a marriage.
It's a very liberating but frustrating point to be at. I have the freedom to do whatever I want right now, but I am frustrated that I do not have the freedom to invest my time and life into anything productive. I begin going nuts when I'm not doing anything with purpose.
How do I twist this time into doing something productive with purpose geared toward preparing for my wedding? Does it mean being with her more or does it mean being adventurous for one last summer?
Either way - I cannot wait til November 12th.
posted by Devo @ 11:11 PM
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