My faults, His Passions
I'm currently working through a series titled "What About When Life Sucks?" Perhaps if I went to seminary it would be titled the "Wills, Wants, and Worries of Walking in the Wilderness" - but I missed the "3 Point Talks with Alliteration" class at USC... hehe. Last week I taught about life in the desert, telling the metanarrative through Matt 4 - using Moses, Israelites, and Jesus in the desert to talk about meeting God there - and how by God's grace he brings us to the desert. This week I am talking about the desert times in Jesus life, and using "The Passion of the Christ" to visually reinforce the point.I've got the talk outlined in my head, but I haven't been able to bring myself to the point of sitting down and writing. I'm afraid of watching the movie again.
The first and only time I watched it I cried for about an hour. Visually seeing what He went through for us, driven by Love and his Father's will, was hard.
Why don't I want to be reminded of this? Why am I afraid to remember, even when he calls us to remember every time we eat together? Why am I afraid of remembering the only event in history that gives my life any meaning and purpose?
About all I can think of is the reminders of my own shortcomings, failings, and personal separation from God. Perhaps it's because I know these are the reasons that He died and went through what he went through... but I'm more likely to assume that it's because I hate being reminded of how much I suck. I hate saying that, but it's true - and once again reminds me of how I am nothing without God.
posted by Devo @ 3:36 PM
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